It's the end of the year and in two weeks my life will be changing, once again, though I won't go over the top and say it's anything dramatic.
This year has had its share of ups and downs. Two relationships that rocked me to my core, one more than the other. The end of a job I love and the end of a job I hate. A play, a life changing Georgia experience, a wedding, a divorce (both friends, not me), a number of surgeries on a tiny body, a true understanding of all consuming love (thanks for that Jude) and countless new friends and acquaintances.
I am usually rather somber this time of year, as yet another year comes to a close and I come to realize that at 33, I am no further along than I was at 23. I was getting ready for work this morning and started to think about how much younger I feel than my counterparts, and how different my life seems to be than it was even six months ago, and I realized that, no matter how I phrase it, there is one universal truth to my life: No matter what I have, or who I am, things can always get better, and they do.
This has been an incredibly tough year for me, and many of you have been a long for the ride. I know that a lot of people in my life have had the quizzical "WTF" look on their face at any number of decisions I have made, and I am grateful that I have been lucky enough to have so many wonderful people in my life, willing to gently chide me, but always diligently encourage me to go on.
I can only hope that 2011 finally brings me centering, peace and understanding of who I am and who I am supposed to be. If not, I hope it gives me at least enough good sense not to spew crazy all over my friends. Thank all of you for helping me through what I can only describe as the most difficult and challenging year I can remember in recent history, and thank you for always being there to care, to laugh, to smile, to share and to remind me that compared to the length of history and time, this year, well, it was nothing. May the end of this year bring new hope, new joys, new loves, new goals, new inspiration and new life to all of you. I wouldn't be who I am without you, and therefore, I hold you directly responsible. :)